I said something 14 days ago..
And I'm starting to doubt it.
How weak am I,
Tripping over something that isn't there.
However,
Last night was a good night.


Ahhh dang! I woke up so late today! Missed service so I slacked outside. Had to skip SS lessons due to reunion dinner. I'm too tired to absorb any new stuffs into my head anyway LOL.

I haven't done any of my homework yet. Weekend so packed I can't even rest LOL. Do the Importants first man!


So happy that the you I see will be the real you from now on..

Second update for a good saturday.

The baptism class wasn't that bad. In fact it was pretty interesting. Stayed back for FFW. 1st time in about 2~3years LOL.

Fuyu No Sora, Fuyu No Sonata, Fuyu No Uta.

Such lovely songs..


Another night has come,
Please dont..

I don't want sleep anymore,
For the dreams I have just gives me false hopes
That wasn't the real you
And this ain't the real me either.


So bored! I used to look forward to Fridays. Now they just plain suck. I jogged back to school to rot since there was nothing to do.

Have my baptism class later at 2pm. Can't believe I forgot about it. Thanks Kevin for reminding me =)


I choose not to hide,
But it didn't allow me to fight.

11 days later..


Tired like WOAH. Super funny in class today. Aleem actually bought 2 digivices. Pretty nostalgic eh LOL.

Oh. He started on his sex talks again. Quite disturbing, coupled with that face change(Luuulz) from 9 o'clock. I needa stick to my principle, so no thanks and FUCK OFF. *Only one other person will understand this paragraph*

Math test was EASY. Okay maybe not so easy but, it's cool ya?

No P.E. tomorrow I think. Have to make up for the lost laps later then.


And they know.. that I don't give a damn

Totally tired. Common to see me stumbling now but no worries. And my stomach problem seems to be acting up again. Dang I wonder how sick and injured can I get..

Some meeting at the combined humanities room with the principal. Great, now they are starting to label us as 'Stars'. Don't really deserve that title as it would be an insult to the others in the room whom truly put in alot of effort while I just slack around. It was a pretty fun time though lol.

It ain't up to me to decide..

And they always tell me I'm left
But one day I'll be right.


Haha, just thought of that myself. Quite logical right?!

English test today! Pretty hard but hope I managed a pass.

Oh ya! Gerald birthday was yesterday. We went to hougang mall for some food @ KFC and POOL. Happy belated birthday once again LOL.


I wake at dawn, hoping to see you.
I weep at dusk, I dared not look into your eyes.

Just when you thought they were on your side
The rebel had already started.
You can't never win em, yes you can't
As yours truly won. Without a doubt.


Common test are starting tomorrow! Never prepare LOL. Prepared to die le.

Wednesday have to go see the principal with xingjun and some 5n1 students. No, I'm not interested in motivational speeches and lectures.

Gerald's birthday celebration later. Pool + Food. Hope it won't end that late..


You're not gone, but you're not here.
To tell you, was a dream
To have you, will be a bonus.

I married you in my dreams

Yes my internet got fried. It's back up, FINALLY.


Friday,

My leg was injured so I skipped P.E. Turned out that I COULD run, which I did at night. Sorry Ms Yeo, I'll return that 4 laps someday.

Saturday,

Lost $20 from betting! Ahhh. Went out for dinner with relatives to lou hei or something lol. Watched 'little big soldier'. Lee Hom acts pretty well lol.

Sunday,

Haircut. The person don't even know how to.. Poked the shaver into my face and forcefully pulled out a few strands.


But.. But..

I'm only human,
and sometimes I make mistakes.


ARGH. My compo scored only 21/30?! I actually spelt 'lethal' as 'lethod' LOL. The new writing style seems to suit me well but using it during exams would mean me having to write 600~700 words for a complete essay? Crazy.

JH didn't come to school today. And I'm awfully quiet LOL. Get well soon ah.

Hokay, right leg injured. Sorta knee-ed a table accidentally and SHAPOW. No P.E. for me tomorrow =\


And I hope that they'll never know.

Bought my PS3 joystick for $88. Abit costly but it's good. Hesitated for quite awhile outside the store, didn't really like the iknowyouarenotgoingtobuyit stare from the storekeeper. Ended up getting 'psycho-ed' by Spade so heck, GET LOR. Okay I'm really broke now LOL.

Was late for school today! I fell down two days ago and I didn't feel any bruise or what yesterday. But there was SHARP PAIN at my left kneecap. Turned out got a very big blue-black on it. Mrs Kang didn't seem convinced LOL.

First day back in school, nothing much.. Yes I didn't bring my textbooks. I was so darn tired that I forgot. Physics retest was a horror..

Now my leg is injured, so P.E is a death sentence for me on Friday. Aleem and Ben Liang going on Slice Of Life on that day too so good luck ya! Gerald did pull it off pretty well.

Just came back from jogging, amazing I survived! I'm still going to run regardless, not AWAY but TOWARDS. Because there is no turning back now.


All for you

Dammit ! The only thing I hate about CNY is SHOPS ARE CLOSED. I have kaching and they tell me they'll only be open after tuesday? Oh the horror.

A stupid SFIV joystick cost $200+. What about my TV and iPhone? This smells, haha..

School tomorrow ! Dunno whether I should be happy or sad. At least I can treat as the gate back to reality.


Feeling so hollow inside

RELATIVES QUARRELLING. Totally crazy I can tell you. They can argue over the slightest things.

All my CNY days are spent the same way, Visit relatives, Plaza Sing, Home. Wasted $4 getting thrashed by those professionals but it was worthed every single cent for the experience.


I really regretted that night. What made me do it?

How could I?

I held back, but that wasn't enough.

Now it's like a mark on my face..

Is this the reason why you doubted me? Is this why everyone is looking at me differently? I was young, foolish I must say. But at least I'll still be able to look at my other half in the eyes and say I Love You.

I will not break any promises I make to myself anymore.

And I just wanna tell you what really happened, but it doesn't matter for you anyway. I'm just a NOBODY.


And the prince falls into yet another deep slumber.

I'm definitely growing up too fast.

Wasting my youth away..

It's time to fight.

But not once will they be for myself.

Happy Lunar New Year and Valentine's Day to all !

It's pretty great, jumping around. I suddenly love to travel alot! My level of patience also increased, first time I didn't bring my psp around to kill time LOL.

Got bored in the evening so I went to Plaza Sing to have a few games of Street Fighter. It's totally different from the PS3 version and there're many pros out there that I really wish to walk up to them and shake their hands. Will buy a joystick controller tomorrow(or just 'borrow' one from mr tan)!

Thought I could ask you out.. A people who truly loves someone else would treat every single day as Valentine's, but today was supposed to be a exceptionally meaningful day. I lost that chance, but I'll make another one myself.

Honestly Ruien, you've got to wake up and sleep,

or you'll be stuck in between forever.

SOOOO TIRED.

At least I'm relieved.

Time to go out again, man I'm beat.

And I dare to go go close to her more.

You might just be lying on the floor without a nose.


Hajimeyouuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

C <3

You can't lose what you never had.

But I lost you although you weren't mine.


School was OKAY. Not much homework. Still not enough sleep. Wonder if I should jog later.. P.E is going to be a killer man..

Still drained from the IPP and weights. Geog test = Horror.

Thanks dad for the ring ! Cat eye !


Should I give up even before trying?

But I'm afraid..

Keep dreaming.

SCHOOL. Mr kang never come to school for 2 days straight. Hope tomorrow he come or everyone is gonna die during IPP. Wonder if I should bring headphones not LOL.

Did some art today! Quite proud of myself(it sucked though) LOL. Alot of nonsense in school man..

Something strange and puzzling happened. A week ago from today I met this girl. I still don't get how people feel that I look like some kind of korean guy. Ok I'm sorta flattered but I'm not into such stuff. Koyote is an exception LOL. At least now CanXing got two things to shoot me with >:(

TOO TIRED. But I wanna listen to musiiiicc. Black eyes since last week..

The cheeseburger without CHEESE ! Haha..

Waiting for the rest of the videos. Check out the group pictures at my fb profile =)

HIStory was totally awesome ! Group 13 FTW !

Glad to have such enthusiastic members. Wei Ming, HuiZhen, Jeff, Luther, Jane, Xiao Wei and (forgot name ._.). Great opportunity to hang out with people from other churches. Saw ex-schoolmate Eugene as well.

So we went on some kind of amazing race game from Lavender~Changi. I had to order from Mac a cheeseburger without cheese(LOL) and do the chicky club dance on MRT. I salute Jeff for chionging so many task by himself! Imagine singing Merry Christmas to some random fellow LOL.

Waiting for Ming Wei to send us the photos and videos. Uhh.. Stay tuned if you wanna see my embarassing moments LOL.

C <3

Something wrong with my limbs LOL. PAIN.

Not enough sleep ! Keep dozing off in class .

Yesterday night went to Compass with Spade and XP to buy a gift for her friend. Saw this super huge burger pillow at action city. Super cool ! Had fun but regretted cuz I didn't finish my homework in the end.

I should shoot myself if I'm late tomorrow. But I know there are hands that will help me up if I fall.


A prince can also become a pauper when it comes to love.